this is a photo to prove that cowboys actually do show their faces. :D

for those of you who are probably looking for a good anime to watch, try eyesheild 21. it rocks! its about some scrawny boy who becomes an americian football "ace" in a team called the deimon devil bats. anyway, go watch it! :D

yay, got an awp in sf! woots! :D

going to see mr lee on tuesday. hope that my results wouldnt be that bad. btw, do you guys really think that a maths is really that much more important than POA? your opinions will be appreciated. :D

haiz... very boring at home. the only things worth doing at home is to read books, watch tv and spam com. :D can someone please organise an outing or something? like norbert or someone? please? :D

k, 1.50am liaos. better go to sleep. night all! :P

i think im falling sick. have a bit of blocked nose and having shivers from time to time. guess its because of eating so much junk food nowadys-mc donalds, chips and chocolate.

gg...... just found out that mr lee was outside of the staff room. my mom and i went to 2c to find him when we were there but.... >.<>

Perfect-Simple Plan

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

hey guys... today is the last day of school and the last day of being with my secondary 1 and secondary 2 classmates.. >.< so....

CY- thanks for being my friend and for lending me the spiderman comic books to read during class to kill the boredom. even though at times you irritate me, you are still one of my friend. sorry for not being that good a friend like not going to your seat when you ask me to and not following you to go somewhere.. :( anyway,good luck and hope you have a fruitful year in secondary 3! :)

Norbert- thanks for being my friend for the past two years. sorry for losing your badminton racket. i'll pay you back ASAP, by hook or by crook. and although sometimes you pangsei me etc to go with sq, you still help me and are generally my friend. thanks for trying to help me with my studies and etc. make sure to continue studying hard in secondary 3a and finally being able to achieve your ambition as a doctor! :D

Darran- darran, you annoying retard... lol JK! xD anyway, thanks for being my friend. thanks for talking to me after school to kill the boredom even though it tempts me so much to play com. remember that time when we talked on the phone for 6 hours straight? and btw, sorry for forcing you to go home with me even though you didnt like it at that time. anyway, good luck in secondary 3 and hope that you get into your class of choice! :P

Edrick- hey edrick.. even though some times you can be a little gay, thanks for being there for me when i need you. remember the time when i lost my handphone? yea, thanks for being there with me to report the incident. and also, thank for comforting me before the english exam. although i have already thanked you through my blog, im very grateful. you are indeed my true friend. good luck tomorrow in not getting to na. if not, welcome to 3d along with me. =D

haiz... everytime i say im going to study, i get on the com to slack around and play sf.... and did i mention im beginning to get addicted to sf? i guess i better hide it away somewhere out of sight so i wouldnt be tempted to play it and transfer all my songs to my phone to avoid going on the com to "listen to songs".

anyway, tomorrow is the last day of school.... kinda dreading it for two reasons. one-having to split up from the closest friends i ever had. two-getting back my report book and having the meet the parents session which involves my dad criticizing my bad results..

haiz.... screwed up my streaming year and cannot take a maths which basically screws up the chances of getting into a good college. heck, at the rate im going, i'll be lucky to get into a polytechnic, let alone a good college.. >.<

EDIT: 12.21 am now and still not asleep. another 6 hours night of sleep of me... zzz seriously better go to sleep... good night all! and btw, cool?! i listened to songs for about 1 hour?! 0.o

sian sian sian sian sian sian. why arent i sleeping? cause the stupid defragmenting programme wont finish defragmenting my hard drive..

class very boring nowadays since the exams are over. starting to enjoy reading spiderman comic books? 0.o my head hurt after reading through them. myabe cause i chionged to fast or i slept too late last night. 12am btw. 6 hours of sleep aint enough for a growing 14 year old teen. but here i am at 11.55pm posting on my blog. >.<>

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

EDIT:why the hell is this post bolded when i dont want it to be?

dont quite feel like myself these days...

someone please invite me out im very sian at home. maybe some badminton or wild wild wet or something!! :(

staying at home playing com is so boring, i have no life.

im thinking of buying cherry credits to get an awp in sf. thoughts people?

today was slacking day. played dm with darran. norbert poned school with the excuse of "not feeling well". ran 30 rounds? for punishment for not brining pe shirt today. had to go and buy a dundee tee shirt to go with edrick. slept during the briefing of the game and thus, edrick tricked me into going to the girls side. >.< owned him when i went back to the boys side. :D slacked for 2 hours plus then went to dawson before going to cornation to buy bubble tea. sent darran home before going home to play sf. quite tired now so brief post only :D

wish me luck in getting back to express after going to normal academic.

i hate my father. he keeps telling me to study and keeps scolding me for stupid random things. he also thinks that im a failure at life. just because some people are naturally lazy and arent as hardworking as nerds like my father was doesnt mean that they are stupid. and yes, he did call me stupid. he also told my youngest brother that he is going to end up like me just because he didnt want to tell him some stupid school stuff. whats more is that he dares to look at my private phone stuff when im in the room with him! if he really wants to look at my stuff, at least try to hide it right?! i know that he is doing this for my own "good" but he should be encouraging me, not putting me down like the stupid idiot he is. he should let me do what i want and be grateful that i asked for tution which means i want to study, not like last time when i poned some tutions.

EDIT: did i mention he keeps telling me to shut up and shut ups himself everytime i argue with him just because of his stupid "pride" like the big fat loser he is?

Bet On It-High School Musical 2

Everybody's always talking at me
Everybody's trying to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talking
I need to count on myself instead

Did you ever?
Loose yourself to get what you want
Did you ever?
Get on a ride and wanna get off
Did you ever?
Push away the ones you should've held close
Did you ever let go?
Did you ever not know?

I'm not gonna stop, that's who I am
I'll give it all I got, that is my plan
Will I find what I lost?
You know you can
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
(Bet on me)
I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say?
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

How will I know if there's a path worth taking?
Should I question every move I make?
With all I’ve lost my heart is breaking
I don't wanna make the same mistake

Did you ever?
Doubt your dream will ever come true
Did you ever?
Blame the world and never blame you
I will never
Try to live a lie again
I don't wanna win this game if I can't play it my way

I'm not gonna stop, that's who I am
(Who I am)
I'll give it all I got, that is my plan
(That's my plan)
Will I find what I lost?
You know you can
(You know you can)
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on me

I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

Hold,hold up
Give me room to think
Bring it on down
Gotta work on my swing
Gotta do my own thing
Hold up

It's no good at all
To see yourself and not recognize your face
Out on my own, it's such a scary place

The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do is believe

I'm not gonna stop
Not gonna stop 'til I get my shot
That's who I am, that is my plan
Will I end up on top?
You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it
You can bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

I wanna make it right, that is the way
To turn my life around, today is the day
Am I the type of guy who means what I say
Bet on it, bet on it
Bet on it, bet on it

You can bet on me

gotta start working again during the december holidays. just posting this to remind myself :D

hey guys. today throughout the day slacked. played dm with darran and edrick. had chinese which was basicially just looking through the paper 1 section, the letter writing and compo. have to buck up sia, i failed both of them :D

anyway, after that, the whole of sec 2 express went to thiong's cinema to watch journey to the centre of the earth. very good show in my opinion. darran, help me go hire the mountain guide ok? 5k per hour. xD

went to thiong's park to play like a bunch of kids(from edrick) with jaeme, darran and edrick. norbert went to play pool that ass. anyway, played there before hopping onto the bus to go home with darran. came back home and played sf :D created a new acc called AvD_Slacker for the clan that kenneth created :D thats all worth posting today. bye xD

got back english paper 2 today. got 49/60 or 49.5/60. cant remember which.had pe. sat there slacking watching people play captain's ball(which is gay btw) and a small game of "football". got back geog paper, got 71.5/100. i dont want to post the rest of my results :D have to start putting in effort again as my title suggests. anyway, jaeme, you got my number right? if not ask it from me during school to tell me when you are playing. i want to own you using psg :D beware... ok bye xD

heres an edited picture of edrick and darran playing maple. i got the picture from edrick's blog. thanks for posting it edrick and enjoy your toy soldier head :D

just a quick post before going to bed. i have church tmr so have to wake up early D: anyway, i ranked up in sf! :D yellow staff sergeant. now for master sergeant and then second lieutenant if im not mistaken. im going to save up for an ak-74 and decided that and remmington is not necessary since beretta is already pure ownage. owned norbert with it like 3 times :D

anyway, downloaded drift city. going to play it next week.

gonna go to sleep now i guess. already 1.10am.. bye all! :D

yea, so i got around to taking a picture of myself looking like a retard. i'm in the study/"internet cafe" room with ear phones :D took it with my phone. new specs too. should i put it up in my profile or get a new one? opinions please :D thanks in advance.

hey guys. posting on my com now! :D anyway, i now have three desires sastified. :D downloading drift city now so that i can play with an old p6 friend. hope that i enjoy and that it will kill some boredom during the holidays. didn't study today, was too lazy and busy watching naruto. i find naruto okay lah but there is a bit too much talking. >.< only on episode 20 though. pretty boring at home and such. nothing much else to post anyway so bye.. :)

might be going to 3na....... gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG gg GG

just found out i screwed the math and science paper... this holiday i seriously have to brush up on my academical results. although i couldnt concentrate during the math paper though.. anyway, off to watch anime for a while before studying chinese and science. bye. :D

i fianlly feel like myself again :D

anyway, the exams are fianlly over!! party time!! xP but i still need to study. didnt do too well for the exams... anyway, nothing else to post. bye! :D

EDIT: bored of out my mind(im not playing sf or any other games cause my com still broken... im using my bros com to post this and he doesnt have any nice games that i like) so im going to try to study my chinese. nothing worth watching on the tv too. :P bye again.

EDIT2: im training myself so that i can snap my fingers *silently wonders if this is correct grammer* anyway, end of random edit. :D

willing myself to study during december hols,
but is it too late to change?

give me time, i can change, wish me luck in 3D.

fighting insomnia right now. don't disturb.

hey guys. most of you might be wondering what happened to me before the english exam, even to the extent of not being able to concentrate on my paper. well... the thing is, these days i haven't really had much self-confidence. how could this happen you ask? well, basicially its because of the way you guys from secondary 2C act towards me.

wait.. scrap that. its the way i act in school. i have been very emo in class. actually, the time is spent analaysing things and such. anyway, what i want to say is im sorry about the way i've been acting in class. the reason why im posting this on my blog is because i can't tell you guys face to face about how i've been acting.

edrick, thanks for comforting me before the english exam and generally being my friend all along. darran and norbert, thanks for being my friends for the last 2 years. also, i know what you guys talked about outside my room. the general picture anyway. to my fellow classmates of secondary 2c, im sorry ive been acting this way. i will change the way i've been acting. thats all i want to say.