Learning to Fall-Boys Like Girls

Today is the day
The worst day of my life
You're so content it hurts me
I don't know why
The cost of misery
Is at an all time high
I keep it hidden
Close to the surface in sight

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Could you be with him?
Or was it just a lie?
He doesn't catch you like I do
And you don't know why
You change your clothes and your hair
But I can't change your mind
Oh, I'm uninvited
So unrequited now

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Words screaming in my head
Why did you leave?
And I can't stop dreaming
Watching you and him
When it should have been
It should have been me

Today is the day
The worst day of my life

I'm learning to fall
I can't hardly breathe
When I'm going down don't worry about me
Don't try this at home
You said you don't see
I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me

Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me)
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me
Whoa (I'm learning to fall, I can't hardly breathe)
(I don't want to know that you know, it should have been me)
Tell me that you know, it should have been me
Whoa (Don't try this at home, You said you don't see)
I don't want to know that you know, it should've been me

to the kind girl:

you are more than good enough for me.. what are you talking about? -.-

she likes joven/joben now. sucks for me..

300 posts!! a random post to bump down the song on youtube that i posted. bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump bump!

2nd song is hella old but my favourite song from mulan.

erm, okay here to do a post on the YMCA camp that i had. better blog about it fast before i forget what i did during the camp -.- sorry, no pictures.. they didn't allow us to bring camera phones in case some random dude steals it from us.. sad eh? :( lol. k side note- i can post pictures of my camp memento and the kite that we made which doesn't fly at all due to tears and lousy tracing paper material. will be getting those online as soon as my dad gets back. i need him to help transfer my files from my phone/camera to my laptop.

so.. i reached the kalang mrt at 9 plus there and saw sonia there. ayaka came running to us 15 mins later then we walked to ymca academy or w/e it's called. we got welcomed by the welcome cheer which goes like this.. we say welcome!!! we say welcome!! we say welcome we say welcome. we say welcome!! blah blah blah blah we say welcome we say welcome, welcome!! my two buddies/volunteers came rushing up to me to help me pack my bag. then after that we listened to the insturcters doing the camp intros and things like that. we did morning activities like shooting down a plastic cup topped with bean bags and crossing through obstacles(more plasice cups) in a zig-zag manner. we also went to pick out paper cards from a rubbish bin filled with plastice balls(the kind you find in kids playgrounds) to form the phrase "y camp challenge 0'10"!

after that, we ate lunch with rice and some other things.. then we went to practice the campfire dance. pretty fun doing it with my buddies, Chin Yang and Wei Lin. thank you guys for taking care of me!!! :D soon after, we bus-sed to ang mo kio swimming complex or w/e. we had water activites/ elements. we did plastic balls throwing from one rubbish bag to another across the pool to the other people. we also ran to the other side of the pool to get plastic balls then ran back to give to people. was fun. we bathed then went back to the camp. btw, Chin Yang did the water activites with me while Wei Lin sat back and handed us the balls.

we ate dinner and did the hungry cheer. couldn't find my fork and spoon which was hiding at the bottom of my bag. -.- fail. then we did camp fire preperation where we made costumes for one of the buddies and his buddy/volenteer. it looked gay. arrows strapped around his waist, a long braided hair raffel string ponytail and a rubbish bag for a shirt and pants. we also made a bow and arrow out of newspaper. we then ate supper(buscuits and milo) then went to sleep.

2nd day arrived!! we did high elements where i was the first one to go on a rope where we had to climb from one end to another using ropes on top to help us along. it was really hot there so we drank loads of water. my buddy, Chin Yang, went up with me to guide me along the way. we crossed it!!! woots!! was very high and thrilling to cross it. sense of adrenaline much!! woot!!! :) anyway, i helped do the rope manager role and second delayer.

lunched then we made a tent. it was a competition thing and we were the last to finish.. bad bulleyes. oh btw, the theme was toy story and i got bulleyes!! sonia got buzz lightyear and ayaka got rex the dinosaur. well anyway, whenever the music paused, we had to stop. i moved a couple of times and i liked the lemon tree song by john lennon.

we made the kite and Chin Yang drew this tiger. looks really nice. i will show it to you later.
after that, we made a camp momento!!!!! took a photo which was stuck there plus some notes. we also took a camp picture.

night fell and came the camp fire!!! we did cheers, free-style dancing where we danced to songs like dynamite by taio cruz and club can't handle me by flo rida! (my favourite part of the camp) and we also did some camp thingys like the camp fire song. no, not the spongebob one LOL. it was the camp fire burning down one. camp fire burning now, camp fire burning down. camp fire burning now, burn burn burn burn!! camp fire burning in the dark dark night, we say ooooo yea! yippie yippie yea! anyway, we then ate supper and went to sleep.

third and final day, we said goodbyes and gave out prizes. we also had devotion to the lord the previous morning at 7.30 and this morning. was fun. we said goodbyes and boarded the bus to kallang mrt where my dad picked me up.

throughout the camp, Hanisah, Ethan(two workers at YouthReach) and Zul sat in with us to take care of the youthreach people and I. all in all, it was a fun camp. yea, that's about it. look out for the photos comming online soon. peace.

pictures are at the top. first one is my kite, second is Chin Yang, Wei Lin and me, third is the other side of the momento. took it with my dad's camera! :)

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well, so much for believing that she would actually return my feelings. too bad..

no mood, no appetite.. getting depressed all over again..

i remember when playing soldier front was fun. now it's just another chore..

i guess this time it really is good bye. ran out of songs and videos to win her over.. :(

to the stalker: she is just a friend now.. o.o

please don't become anorexic.. i care about you. :(

elliot yamin-wait for you. nuff'said.

taylor swift-love story. nuff said.

Sorry for not asking you to prom. Just never went on a real date before. <3

i want this. best gaming headset out there with 2.0 and 7.1 surround sound. hella expensive though.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sSZE0C50Fo0

this is hilarious. xD

I miss you.. :(

completely lost interest in soldier front. only things that is keeping me from quitting is lack of games to play and the R4gEQuiT clan. at least i'm not addicted anymore! :)

3 doors down-krypotonite

I took a walk around the world to
Ease my troubled mind
I left my body laying somewhere
In the sands of time
I watched the world float to the dark
Side of the moon
I feel there is nothing I can do, yeah

I watched the world float to the
Dark side of the moon
After all I knew it had to be something
To do with you
I really don't mind what happens now and then
As long as you'll be my friend at the end

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well, will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with
My superhuman might
Kryptonite

You called me strong, you called me weak
But your secrets I will keep
You took for granted all the times I
Never let you down
You stumbled in and bumped your head, if
Not for me then you would be dead
I picked you up and put you back
On solid ground

If I go crazy then will you still
Call me Superman
If I'm alive and well will you be
There holding my hand
I'll keep you by my side with my
Superhuman might
Kryptonite

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xPU8OAjjS4k&feature=avmsc2

haven't grown in like half a year-.- this may be my new permanent height.

haiz.. just lost 2 fullscap paper's full of my maths work.. -.- anyway, i'm just going to slack off tonight again. need a rest after 9 months of not attending school. *totally feels guilty for slacking off*

freaking moles and "avacado" constant and all the bull shit is so chim. i also hate conduction, convection and radiation. that is all. :)

hey all. just here doing a random post of the day. adapting to school life well at saint francis methodist school well. just kinda miss my old boss man and the joker edrick and mr birdless(xD). so far haven't been attending that much of school but hoping to increase my attendence percentage.

commerce and literature happen to be 2 of my worse subjects. commerce is basicially a simplified principles of accounts where you have to absorb facts. kinda boring but there is no food and nutrition(my best subject) in saint francis methodist school. :( literature we are doing fehrenheit 451 which is a chim book about some firemen burning books. at least we aren't doing the chimology to kill a mocking bird anymore though lol.

friends wise i have this fan group which is spearheaded by a girl who likes me. i don't like her though. i enjoy esl quite a bit as i can enjoy watching alyousius tan playing pacman wars on his laptop and mix around with rahman, an idiot dude who enjoys seeing me dance. apparently i can dance but that's only because they taught us how to dance during sec 3 back in queenstown for aces day. lol i invented this dance where i stand on one leg and hop around while playing an air guitar. apparently girls find me funny in esl(english support learning or english as a second language. don't know which)

games wise, i bought left 4 dead 2 and call of duty modern warfare 2. i finished the campaign in call of duty modern warfare 2 on normal mode. quite fun but the multiplayer is hard. going to try to be good at it soon. left 4 dead is fun as you can heal using medi packs and it has shotguns, uzi and ak-74 galore. the campaign is fun as hell when you play online with other players. there is a thing where you can throw and fire and acidic acid from a zombie comes flying out. cool eh? :D there is also a health pills which you can take for a temperory health boost. i like l4d2. hoping to get more games soon such as diablo 2 or maybe g coins for gold m4 in soldier front soon. :)

yea, that's about all i wanted to post. make sure to visit www.101blackroses.blogspot.com for updates on isabel tan, sister of boss tan. ciao all! :)

hey everyone go to www.101blackroses.blogspot.com for Darran's sister's blog :) HELP REVIVE IT GUYS! SHE NEEDS THE VIEWS AND IT'S FREAKING BOSSES'S SISTER!!!! COOL!!!! :D

Bullet for My Valentine-Tears Don't Fall

Lets go!

With blood shot eyes I watch you sleeping
The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
Would she hear me if I calls her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

The moments died, I hear no screaming
The visions left inside me are slowly fading
Would she hear me if I calls her name?
Would she hold me if she knew my shame?

There's always something different going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?

Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home

Oh! Yeah!

This battered room I've seen before
The broken bones they heal no more, no more
With my last breath I'm choking
Will this ever end I'm hoping
My world is over one more time

Lets go

Would she hear me if i called her name?
Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

There's always something to be going wrong
The path I walk's in the wrong direction
There's always someone fucking hanging on
Can anybody help me make things better?


Your tears don't fall
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home
Your tears don't fall [tears don't fall]
They crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come
Better!

Your tears dont fall they crash around me
Her conscience calls the guilty to come home.

i'll try not to be on in soldier front from 22/5/10-29/6/10. if anything, just tag at my blog or call me.

i'll try not to be on soldier front from 5/7/10- 11/7/10.

hi all. just here doing a post about my 16th birthday. 1 more birthday till i consider myself old :( 2 more years to getting my driver's lisence and being legally old. lol

k, so basically i woke up at about 8 plus. received a sms from darran wishing me happy birthday. talked to edrick for a while before taking a quick nap. leon, lionel and darran came knocking on the door at 11 plus waking me up. -.- they brought call of duty modern warfare 2, halo 3 and left for dead 2 for the xbox 360. so basically we went up to the study room to play some duel masters and yu gi oh. at 12 plus edrick and edwin came. we ordered in macs. my sister paid for it of course seeing that i had no money. i ordered a double cheeseburger meal upsized with sprite but end up i took coke. i don't really mind anything anyway. leon/lionel made shacker fries with the spices and etc.

at about 1 plus norbert arrived with his girlfriend. :D lol shes quite chio though but damn emo and very shy. lol he brought his laptop over to my house and showed me raycity which is a racing game where you can jump around when you control a car. weird huh? lol around 1-2 plus kk and ct came over. i went to the bustop which i used to stop at whenever i take 186 back home. i picked them up and then we played some modern warfare 2 with leon and lionel. i watched them play some yu gi oh and dueled with edrick in duel masters. i borrowed a deck of course.

after that, we went to some lan shop in orchard road. we took a bus there. my mother gave me $130 dollars to pay for the expenses. we played blackshot there. quite fun but you have to aim for the dead to get a 1 hit ko. harder than soldier front. i watched norbert play some starcraft and watched his girlfriend played audition which just basicially invovles pressing of buttons randomly. i watched the rest of them play some counter strike too but i didn't play.

when we didn't want to play anymore, we went to walk around a shopping mall and went to comic's collection to buy some card protecters. of course, i didn't buy any since i don't play any card games anymore. we went to play some arcade but i chose not to buy a card. just watched edrick play some tennis games and watched some other people play some arcade street fighter thing.

we took a bus home and ate some bbq. bbq'd chicken wings and garlic bread were my favourites!! served the guests some drinks and etc. caught up with my old classmates during the dinner. after dinner, we basiically hung around playing card games and xbox 360. we cut the cake at about 10 plus but edrick and edwin had to go back before that. had oreo cheesecake from secret recipe. they all went home after that and left me, darran and norbert. norbert drew a map of how to get home for his girlfriend and sent her home. darran stayed on until his dad drove here which took about 30 mins in total. he lives in pyar labour fyi. norbert stayed over at my house and we spammed computer after that. had a relatively early night at about 12 am plus.

we had chicken rice and buns for lunch and breakfast respectively and norbert went home at about 1 plus. not really in the mood to post so its quite short but whatever. yea, that's all i wanted to post so bye all.

just here taking a break from doing my geography work. lol. anyway, i caught 2 boys smoking today. ray and some other random guy ray introduced me to. yea, i didn't report them to the school authorities for smoking. the other guy said he will beat me up if i told on him but whatever. i didn't. anyway, they asked me if i wanted to smoke but i refused. im only 16 and you need to be at least 18 to smoke so whatever man.

anyway, exams are comming up in 2 weeks. i totally am not prepared for them. need to buck up for my commerce, physics and literature. those are my weaker 3 subjects. need to study my commerce textbook, physics textbook and read up on literature. i fail at literature though. epicly lol.

yea so my birthday is comming up so yea. 15th may so im inviting norbert and maybe darran if he wants to come. probably going to have a bbq or something. dunno what else is there to do around the house but whatever man. i really have no better ideas for my birthday party other than going to a shopping centre and watching a movie. maybe going archery or rock climbing is a good idea too? idk lol

yea, thats about all i want to post. going to read forums for a bit before finishing up my maths, geography and physics homework. yea hella alot aye? anyway, bye all :)

just here doing a boredom post. nothing much to post other than saint francis methodist school 50th anniversy. they gave us some jelly and paddle pop vanilla and chocolate ice cream. they also gave a chirstian cd that was worked on by some people in the school. they gave speechs and kenny, winnie and debi(people from my class) performed on stage doing dances for us along with other people. there was a prize presentation. we got to go home at about 12pm. there was a dinner later in the day at some hotel but i didn't buy the ticket so i didn't go for it. today was declared a school holiday just because there was enough tables bought out at the dinner. tomorrow i have to go back to school though so yea. just stayed home for the last 2 weeks as i wasn't feeling well. have to remember to get my mother to write me a letter to excuse me for that 2 weeks or so.

i wish you were here :(

great song introduced to me by a friend- http://www.youtube.com/user/slashPSG#p/f/5/8DWILnFyZnQ

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3O0-xKAd9to- can't seem to find this on mixpod so i'm posting it here.

can't find this on mixpod ethier so i'm posting it here- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7-cmcCwmMb8&feature=fvst

Everything I asked for-The Maine

She takes her time with the little things
Love notes reminding me (reminding me)
She wears red when she's feeling hot (so hot)
I have her but it's all I got
She looks best without her clothes(no, not really. not ask me why the song writer is so perverted)
I know a song it's the way it goes
I don't know what she sees in me (she looking at me)
But I'm happy that she's happy now that she's with me
And I'm freaking out because I'm just so lucky

Oh she makes me feel like shit (it's always something)
But I can't get over it (she thinks it's nothing)
'Cause shes everything I ask for
Everything I ask for
And just a little bit more
Everything I ask for
Everything I ask for and so much more

She loves music but she hates my band
Loves Prince, she's his biggest fan
Not big on holding hands
But that's alright 'cause I still got her
She keeps up on current affairs
Prada is what she wears
I don't know what she sees in me (sees in me)
But I'm happy that she's happy now that she's with me
And I'm freaking out because I'm just so lucky


Oh she makes me feel like shit (it's always something)
But I can't get over it (she thinks it's nothing)
'Cause shes everything I ask for
Everything I ask for
And just a little bit more
Everything I ask for
Everything I ask for and so much more

Fist fights turn into sex(i feel like censoring this lol)
I wonder what comes next
She loves to always keeps me guessin' (guessin')
And she (she) won't (won't) give it up
And we (we) won't (won't), no
it's because...

Oh she makes me feel like shit (it's always something)
But I can't get over it (she thinks it's nothing)
'Cause shes everything I ask for
Everything I ask for
And just a little bit more
Everything I ask for
Everything I ask for (oh she's a little bit more)
Just a little bit more
Everything I ask for
Everything I ask for (whoa)
So much more
Everything I ask for
Everything I ask for and so much more

275 posts!!!! and.....



I RANKED TO BLUE LIEUTENANT COLONEL!!!!!!! WOOTS!!! :D:D:D::D:D:D:DD:D lol


P.S I organised songs in mixpod. You guys should be able to find songs in it more easier. It goes by artists and the random songs that only have one artist is at the bottom lol.

in the mood to blog right now since there is nothing better to do so might as well blog.

k, last week i got a new specs and a bean bag chair. will take pictures with my phone since my webcam can't work since i upgraded my computer to windows 7. i like my new specs btw. framless gold stylo specs. i don't use the bean bag chair that much though.

k, so basicially i went some girl's party. no, i don't like her. i just thought i'll go for the hell of it and since theres nothing better to do. well so i bought her some porcelien piggy bank thingy which my sister chose. apparently its cute according to my sister. well so when i arrived, i only met 2 people who i know which is the girl and her friend, my classmate. so we drank some punch thingy and ate some noodles with pork and some weird chicken-ala-gross thing. well, there was more food but thats all i took. we just played some pool and now i can make easy shots so yea, improved my pool game. i can't make a shot where the cue ball hits one ball and that ball hits another ball which makes it roll into the hole. yea, hard to understand i know. i don't have a picture to explain it though. yea so basicially the girls sang karaoke which had some korean or whatever langauage songs. i didn't have the guts to sing but apparently i can sing according to this singer pia kia from my class. weird. i ate some chocolate cake there too. yummy! :) yea so went back at 4pm and took a nap. was supposed to go for this badminton thing with my dad at keppel club but i was too tired.

anyway, i just watched clash of the titans last night. it was pretty okay but i didn't understand the plot since it had to have alot of background knowledge behind the gods and stuff. i also watched how to train your dragon and it was pretty good. i could understand it and the big dragon at the end was complete ownage. but of course the main character(forgot his name) owned him in the end. completely predictable plot where both the main character and the dragon survive. -.- lame. i also watched 17 again in class. yea i watched alot of movies recently lol. was about some guy called mike who got a girl pregeant and decided to marry her at the age of 17. he had to give up this scholarship to marry her and to provide for the family. he had this spirit guide old janiter person turn him back to 17 but he didn't go back in time. it was in the present. yea, i found that part weird. the wive wanted a divorce and in the end the boy turned back into the man and got back together with the wife. pretty good i feel lol.

i also want to blog about how different saint francis methodist international is different from government school. well of course the school fees cost a bomb(14 thousand dollars for a year) and you have to rent a locker for 40 bucks. all of the classrooms have air-con and you have to change to differnet rooms for different classes. yea, apparently i have to do that in jc or poly so might as well get used to it now. they also sell unhealthy stuff such as chips, soft drinks and chocolates in the school tuckshop. we also have weird subjects such as english support learning(ESL), chapel and pastoral care(which is basicially watching movies. yea slacking class i know lol).

yea thats all what i wanted to blog about so bye all. still in my pjs so im probably going to change after this lol.

Just wanted to share my ranking to green lieutenant colonel. Being shiny totally rocks and I just ranked last night. Woot woot!!! :D

lol just wanted to share my ranking game to lieutenant colonel. the first picture is when i ranked up to lieutenant colonel and the second is my last game as a yellow major. lol thats all i wanted to post so bye.

nothing much to post at all so just waiting for something spectacular to happen. staying at home doing nothing much during the march holidays kills my mood to blog. cause im broken!!! I NEED TO BE BROKEN TO TAKE THE PAIN AWAY!!!!! yea, i'm listening to broken by 12 stones so another song pick of the day even though its hardcore screamo to me. i still like it though lol.

i'll try not to be online for the rest of next week until next next monday(as of 25/2/10)

270 posts!!! LOL and....


I RANKED!!!! WOOTS!!! RED MAJOR!! :) Note the alcad m4 and double mk23s :) i'm feeling a bit light-headed now so I won't post anymore.