Man, I wish I could speak to her. But she is too busy being much more popular than me all the time. She has it so much better than me. Having pets, a better house, the fact that she is already in JC, more firends.. EVERYTHING! Why can't she see how strong my feelings are for her? All she cares about is bull crap like her stupid ex but she won't get over it. She even stalked him to the point where she finds his blog mysteriously.. Haiz, life sucks right now.. I have nothing left to give. Nothing.. Bye world. Colin is going to Lala Land.

I write and write, but it all amounts to nothing if you don't read it.. Looks like this time, a perfect fairy tale won't come true.. Only in the emo kia's dream land..

Everyone is out being popular and having fun while I am stuck at home being lifeless.. Oh, how I yearn for a normal poly/JC life.. -_-

Without the daily dose of your words, I am nothing, utterly nothing..

Left eye slowing giving out.. I wonder how long it can last.

How you can manage to have the same feelings as strong or even more for a certain person for nearly 6 years when it is long distance for 5 years simply astounds me..